Music: Get It Up - Mindless Self Indulgence

Update on 23 June: I know I said semi-hiatus. But in actual fact, the more I think about it…coming back here might be a waste of my time and money.

Please don’t get your panties in a knot; let me explain for a moment.

Y’know, back when I got my previous domain, lindelea.net, I was basically at the height of my “web designing career” so to speak. I was so focused on having a good website. So.fucking.focused. I sacrificed a lot of myself for it, to be honest. Hours of writing and re-writing content, making content as well as making graphics (layouts of all things), coming up with ideas to make it so interesting - all that just to make it all worth my while. It was to make me feel like I wasn’t wasting USD$10 a year for it, not to mention a lot more on the hosting plan I’m on.

It’s pretty clear to me that when I decided to close that site, it was pretty much because I needed to stop. Just stop. But I saw that as an opening to get a new domain…and I did. It’s been like 3 months or something since I’ve gotten Taste of Ink. But I’m just not so hyped up about web designing anymore. Just the weight of having a website - a domain name even - is really heavy on me. The only thing I ever really enjoy now is making layouts. And I can’t just do that for my site, y’know? I need more bulk than that - more substance.

My blog entries are bland here because the only time I ever blog is when I feel like I have to. It might just be me feeling guilty about wasting money again, but I just feel so obliged to use this space so I don’t have to worry that “oh no. I’m wasting it; it’s such a bloody waste of money”. It’s like I feel like I have to blog something - anything, even if it’s crap - to make me feel even remotely better about owning a site.

Maybe that above paragraph was too repetitive for words, but I can’t phrase myself any better at the moment, sorry.

I feel really guilty about having my sister pay my hosting bill. I do pay her back. But it’s still charged to her credit card first and every time I remember that, it puts a shadow in my mind. I don’t want to have to do that anymore. If I ever want a website again, I’ll make sure it’s from my own account right from the start. I just hate owing people anything.

Bottom line? I don’t enjoy it as much as before - owning a website, I mean. My run with it was incredibly short, but maybe I’m just not cut out for this. I find myself liking to blog in places like LiveJournal more. It’s because I don’t have to think about other things other than writing a good blog. I don’t have to worry or feel obliged or anything.

I also feel like just owning a domain name is a huge responsibility for some reason. Probably why I don’t enjoy web design much anymore =(

This place isn’t gone forever - I may decide to come back before this year is done - but for now, consider Taste of Ink closed. My LiveJournal account is protected and I only give access to certain people. I won’t add anybody else unless I know them well enough. I’m sorry, but it’s for my more private words. If you want (or bother) to find me writing in another public sector, you can find me at HarlequinRomance@wp.com. Anything but a domain.

I’m really sorry, guys =( But I can’t stay if I really feel so awful about it. So see you on HR or…anywhere else.

<3
Much love,
Sher

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Semi-hiatus, folks. If nobody saw this coming…well, I’m telling you about it because I’ve just been so slacked with this site. It’s like…I just can’t be bothered anymore. The yearly website blues, I suppose, but meh. I don’t really care at the moment. As long as I come back, not feeling obliged to do anything, I’m fine.

I’ll have to return comments from the previous post, and this doesn’t mean I’ll stop visiting my regulars or anybody on my links page. I just won’t update here.

Till next time,
<3 Sher

Music: Still Here - H2O

Edit: I managed the layout! =D Feedback, y’all ;) More work to be done on the site soon. I think I just needed a layout to make me motivated. Well, at least a little bit motivated anyway. /Edit

I decided to finally write a blog. Like, a proper blog. But what happens when you have nothing to write on? Well, you update people on your life and you write crap, in general.

But the thing is, I haven’t been doing much since the last update. I’ve been stagnant - as I always am during holidays. So yeah. I haven’t been making graphics, I haven’t been writing articles, I haven’t been doing anything site-related, basically. I’m even behind on commenting some people so most of you probably think I’m dead *shrugs* That wasn’t meant to sound pessimistic at all pmsl. But it’s just true, I guess.

I plan on trying to make graphics this weekend, but I have no idea if I can pull anything good off. I mean, I’m currently re-obsessing over a few people and might make a layout with one of them in it, but really, what are the chances? Just so you know, one of them’s Jared Leto, just that whenever I make something with Jared/30 Seconds to Mars in it, it turns out fucking awful. So I’m a bit paranoid about making graphics with him/them in it. Plus, I’m still gutted that Wachter left. He was clearly the funniest guy in the band (okay, if you don’t listen to 30stM/like their fandom/don’t care, don’t comment on this).

I feel so unmotivated!! NOOOO! /spazz And there’s a perverse mozzie or something crawling up my leg ;)

…How much effort do you put into your website?

Music: Scream - Avenged Sevenfold

I’ve been too lazy to update anything on here, so I’ll just pop in to say I’ve just had other things to do than hang around TOI for a bit.

What other things? Well, raiding my fridge and watching movies, basically. Whenever holidays come around, I tend to watch more movies on DVD than needed. Do you do that?

*tries to organise thoughts and fails*